The other day, I realized that God has called me to once again wait on Him. I feel as though I am always waiting on Him, yet there are moments where the wait is a much harder commitment. This time, I have been given the command to wait and watch God work through a situation that seems to have gone a way that I secretly thought it would but truly hoped it wouldn’t.
Perhaps that was the test. Knowing that things may never happen the way you truly want them to, but you still pursue the calling that God has given you. You do this because that is what God has put in your heart. To fall away from what He has given you to do is giving into the darkness that you have fled from. It gives Satan an open door to your life to go and mess with your emotions and cause you to doubt.
Even as I write this, I write it with a heart that is slightly broken, yet still beating because I know that God is working through me and for me right now. I choose the joy of the Lord and to follow His desires for my heart because no matter what, He has my heart and my soul.
If you think for a second being a Child of God is easy, I want you to smash that idea. It is the hardest thing in the world. It’s hard and it’s painful, but within it all, there is hope. God is hope and I have learned to pray with an expectant hope and live with hope. That has changed my ability to see things for what they truly are. God has given me His eyes and has changed my heart to want what He wants. This change is part of His promise to give me a new life.
“And now, Lord, what do I wait for? My hope is in You.” – Psalm 39:7
At the end of your season of waiting, the answer will be far from what you thought it would be. The truth is that it was going to be different from the start, but your heart would not have been ready for it the way it was before the season of waiting. Trusting God doesn’t come easy, but He requires it! My own heart knows all of this to be true, yet it is a human heart that fails and is bruised. My faith in Him is what gives me the ability to say, “Lord, let your will be done.”
Check out this song that I have been listening to on repeat 🙂
While I’m Waiting by John Waller
Soli Deo Gloria